Experienced by many; understood by but a few, I have here laid out a rather personal account, of my experiences with this condition. Otherwise known as 'Bipolar' it translates to two extremes in something i.e. positive and negative, that is contained within one entity. In a psychological context it represents experiencing prodigious intensities of emotion, from dizzying/euphoric highs to plummeting bouts of despair.
Long misunderstood and stigmatised, I have wrestled with it for not only my entire adult life, but the majority of my adolescence too. It comes to define you as a person, both in the favourable and the unfortunate. Although recognised as a mental illness, it rarely receives the acceptance it rightly deserves, due to it's subjective nature. As the illness itself cannot be directly observed, many fail to be correctly diagnosed, indeed by themselves or by qualified professionals.
The first thing you need to understand about manic depressives, is that most of us would choose it, over living a more conventional lifestyle. Although prone to severe, and sometimes psychotic episodes with little or no cause or warning. We also encounter insurmountable waves of creativity in whatever we do, combined with an indomitable will and almost desperate determination to move forward.
As if the very ground beneath our feet was set a blaze with the fiercest heat imaginable. In these moments, no obstacle is beyond our grasp. Engulfed with a sublime confidence/arrogance, the sensation is hard to quantify in words.
There is of course the sinister flip side of this state of being, but here to; there are myriads of misconceptions. Firstly is that of the cause; most people infer depression in a purely pragmatic sense i.e "I lost my job, or friend or loved one" etc "So I'm sad now". Manic Depression is different, affecting the poor and privileged alike, your circumstances are irrelevant. There is no convenient 'cause' to observe or label to assign, an episode can strike at any time, place or circumstance regardless of your condition.
I've heard other suffers describe it as a dark and menacing cloud ,that follows them throughout their lives, always being without an umbrella at the mercy of this emotional downpour. It's an astute example to demonstrate the vicarious way you have no choice but to live. Imagine always being at the mercy of such a twisted creature, dictating how you are going to feel on that particular day.
Despite it's widespread prevalence (millions within the uk), affecting individuals from all walks of life, it remains difficult to quantify. Victims include Stephen Fry, Friedrich Nietzsche, Ernest Hemingway, Charles Dickens and far more amusingly and unexpectedly, examples such as Jean Claude Van Damme.
“The snake which cannot cast its skin has to die. As well the minds which are prevented from changing their opinions; they cease to be mind.” - Friedrich Nietzsche
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder